We recently got some very difficult news from the clinic, which may put a stop to our plans. I'd rather not share exactly what the news is, as I do want to keep some amount of privacy in this very very stressful and confusing journey, but what I do want to know is, how does one keep faith in such a very difficult time?? Every hazy day seems so blend into the next....either waiting for test results or getting shots....it's hard to get excited or get hopeful about much....
Since this is the Three Weeks, I have been listening to a tape that I received at the last Tisha B'Av presentation for the Chofetz Chaim Heritage Foundation. A wonderful organization. Every Tisha B'Av they have a video presentation that is shown all around the world. It's usually very inspiring and touching. Rabbi Pesach Krohn and a few other rabbis give talks on various aspects of the destruction of the Bais Hamikdash. How do we mourn over a building that was destroyed over 1900 years ago? None of us have ever seen it happen...so how do we relate or meditate on that? The Rabbi explains, that not too long ago, in fact almost 4 years ago, two towers were attacked and obliterated in New York City. We can all imagine it. We all remember the shock and horror of all of those innocent victims losing their lives. We can build our yearning to be out of this galus and upside down world from the sad events of 9-11.
I guess the point of the Rabbi was that our lives in galus are so insecure and temporary. Nothing is guaranteed. There is so much sadness - so many people are suffering with illness, money problems, shidduch problems, deaths in family, childlessness, relationship problems, etc. Pehaps G-d wants us to turn to him, to turn to the source, and demand that we get out of this non-sensical life. Perhaps when we have the new and 'final' Bais Hamikdash, life will be without sufferering and we will know these horrible 'parshot' no more.
and this is coming from a chick who hasn't really gone to shul in months....
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